I’ve been learning a lot about trust lately.
As someone who has a relationship with the Creator God, I know He alone is in control of all the happenings in my life, and I love having that peace like a child… trusting my Abba Father to take care of me, my family, and those that rise up against us.
Lamentations 3:37 Who can speak and have it happen if the Lord has not decreed it?
My husband’s job is at risk in a big way right now by a person that seems to have been against us since we’ve lived here in NY. Our December felt robbed because of the drama that was brought by this person and the team that stands with her. He had 3 visits in a weeks time at one point and was also told his job would be over in three days and then called back the next day to say no it wouldn’t be, but may be the next time he is visited.
This experience has been so hard for me as a wife to see my best friend and a wonderful leader be so repeatedly professionally bullied when he has done so much good up here. It’s also served as a reminder to me that as a wife, it is not my place to save him, defend him, or retaliate against higher-ups with my words, or even in my heart. I like being in control, so this has been VERY hard for me to concede my will to God’s control and trust that He knows exactly what’s happening and nothing happens without His consent.
My husband is the one that from the beginning has encouraged our family to pray for these people in authority over him up here, I had a hard time doing that without asking for God to leave a mark (yikes!) for a long time. I honestly do pray for each of their hearts now to be reconciled with God and that maybe through this situation they may see Him through our responses to what they mean for harm.
So my prayer now that we are through the holidays (and the safety that they brought by no one wanting to be the one to terminate someone at Christmas) is for 35 more days of work. 35 days gets us to the annual cut-off time for his annual bonus which would be a blessing to have if a job is no longer available. It would also be a blessing to have as we pray that the next step that this will lead our family to is full-time ministry work.
We have been looking for years for full-time ministry but no doors have been opened for us in that pursuit over the years. Our latest talks have been with Wycliffe Bible Translators in Florida and their need for the business mind and training within my husband. We would LOVE to work among people who love our Savior, it’s been a decade since we have and we long for that communion again. We continue to search and trust that God will lead and we will be wise enough to see His path and follow it through. Many of these positions are support based so that adds an element of fear for me, but thankfully not for my husband, who keeps pointing my shoulders back to God and reminding me HE has all our needs covered.
God know the plans we have, and I pray they are a copy of His heart upon ours. I covet your prayers with me for these 35 days of prayer.
Today Lord Jesus I pray for safety in the physical snow storm that we have here in NY, that the workers would make it to work safely and prepare the business to be approved by authorities over them, I pray for those bosses you know to come to know you as well, I pray that my husband finds his strength in you, pursues your approval above all others, and maintains his testimony for you in his workplace. Thank you for being in control and being worthy of trust and trustworthy. Thank you for the peace you have given us that passes our understanding. Please grant us 35 days of work and help us to stay out of your way while you work in our hearts in this very real way. I love and trust you God. In Jesus name I pray…