I suppose I have never truly considered food battles to be a war for my soul. At first thought, it seems a bit of an extremist view to take, but in further looking, it is scary and true.
What’s the first thing I do when I am sad or bored or stressed out? I probably say a quick prayer but then I find myself in the kitchen searching for a fix to my moment. This action leads to indulgence followed by guilt which for me is usually translated into self-loathing and saying negative things to myself. This, is why this is a war that threatens my soul. By giving in to the “lust of my eyes” and indulging when I am probably more than not, not even hungry, I am taking control for my self and lacking in dependence on God. By self-mutilating myself mentally with harsh words thought or sometimes even said I am grieving my Creator.
This is not an impossible journey, on my own power it may be, but with God on my side nothing is impossible. This means that I must rely on HIM more to fill my spirit and give me joy than I rely on food to temporarily satisfy a need.
In Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food,Lysa Terkeurst urges the use of scripture to defeat temptations just as Jesus used scriptures many times. There is a scripture for each and every circumstance that we may face in life.
2 Timothy 3:16-17 (NIV)
All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.
So, using scripture to rebuke the lie that I need food to satisfy a desire for contentment or comfort is completely doable and something I must incorporate into my kitchen and heart.
No more status quo, no more excuses, or regrets or self-hatred, no more running to emptiness. I have to decide for myself, as each of us do, that God loves me as I am and desires so much more for me than I am allowing Him in my life. Letting go of reliance on food to comfort will not always be easy and I won’t always want to talk to God about it, but I must. This is the only way to truly benefit my life and the lives of those I love. To live fully craving my Creator and allowing Him to satisfy my longings and fill my spirit with a joy that bubbles over into each aspect of my life.
Matthew 5:6 (NIV)
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Lord, please fill me with your power and love. Help me to cling to your words, to hide them in my heart and apply them to my steps, forgive me for trying to make food meet a need that wasn’t physical but a mis-understanding of my soul crying out for your bread of life.
Give me the clarity to see these attacks and bring to mind your words to win each battle. I desire a closer communion with you so that I may be a more useful life for your kingdom. Thank you for creating me, for making me beautiful in your eyes. Help me to see me through your eyes daily, I no longer want my tainted glasses that lead me to insult your work in me. May each day that you give me be another day that I see more clearly your love for me and your desires to use me, and my family to glorify you. In Jesus precious name I pray all this, Amen.
No more excuses, rationalization, and promises for doing or being better tomorrow. I want each day to count and can’t waste moments on empty attempts to satisfy a craving that can only truly be satisfied by reaching for the one who completes me wholly, my Creator, my Savior, my Lord.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV)
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline.